Ok, call me crazy! You know you want to!! I want to!!1 It is midnight!! 1) I have to get up at 4am to catch my 8am flight to PNG this morning 2)I am already super tired from running on empty the past couple of days 3) Two nights ago I only had 4hrs sleep! 5)I am writing this blog instead of sleeping (and honestly this blog isn't that urgent - I just feel like sharing!)

Basically I haven't really been up to much since my girls night out. Just that Rus, Chris and Daniel V. came to visit on Monday and that was so cool. We spent the entire day with them - us being me, Kel A, Kel P, Kristin and Melody for a bit of it. We gave a tour, ate junk food, had interesting chats, played games, watched Love Actually and discussed Big Camp (it is going to be so awesome!!!). It was a fun day even with the small numbers :D we had invisted others but they couldn't make it due to a variety of reasons but that is ok since they were good reasons and we still had people visit!! :D

I am flying home tomorrow ... ok, today. I am so excited. Time with folks, time to play jokes on my parents, have deep discussions about the world around me etc. etc. etc.

AH, it should be fun. Anyway, enjoy your hols, break, school, work etc. etc. that you m ay be up tod.

Miss you all,

Sharona

Ok, it is nearly 3am yet I have had such a great night that I just have to share!!! :D

Ok, well I leave to go home in a couple of days so Yo, Kel and I decided to go out for dinner (you know, to catch up and everything since I won't be able to for a while; it was also good just having a bit of freedom to go out with ONLY girls and at NIGHT - both of which can not be done in PNG!). We decided to go to Castle Towers (a shopping centre that Yo is always going on about) and we ate at this great Italian place. I had a really good meal of softish pasta (it was awesome as I have had craving for pasta lately). I did ok since I had my painkillers (it was funny as before we could leave the Res both Kel and I had to make sure that we had had our painkillers!!! Dear me!!!). Then after an awesome meal (and usually when I eat out I don't have a big appetite) I was hungry for desert. I had a craving for Sorbay (yeah, yeah, I know it is the wrong spelling but you know what I mean). Lemon stuff too. So we went to a place that said that they sold it. But we got chatting with the waitress and they didn't have that kind and most of the stuff that they did have was alcholic or fruit we didn't really like. So, I decided to embarrrass everyone by saying "Do you mind if we go somewhere that does sell it?" I felt quite bad - I don't normally do that - but the waitress was really nice about it and actually recommended a place down the way. :D

We headed down and it appeared like there was no lemon. I was going oh, poor me when the guy asked what I wanted. So I asked about it and it was out back!!!! Yipeee!!!!!!!! Then he asked me if I wanted a waffal cone and since it has been a while since I have had one I said yes!! So he went out back and then I realised oh, no! I can't eat any kind of cone because my mouth is still so sore. So I am trying to get his attention and stop him. But the counter was too high and he was leading down and there was a lot of noise (and as all this is going on Kel is pretending like she doesn't know me!). Finally another girl asks me if she can help and I say ... Can you please stop him!!! (like it is a huge emergency!!!) I explain (kinda) and get my order ok :)

Ok, so by this time Kel is ready to sink through the floor and I am so tempted to yell out "Hey everyone, this chick knows me and well, actually we are lesbian lovers!" But I thought better of it. The night had been so good so far ... didn't really want to miss it up. :D

Then an old friend from Mel rang and I started telling him the story. I was so involved in telling it and there was a lot of noise from the road that I didn't even notice that the phone had cut out!!! When it started ringing in my ear it scared the living daylights out of me!!! And Kel and Yo just couldn't stop laughing!!! So bloody embarrassing. Needless to say, everyone found it pretty funny (even me after a little while) :D

After the phonecall we decided to take random photos. The pizzaria (it was all outside - unsure if I just repeated myself there but oh well!) was beautiful with little waterfalls, fairy lights and cute restaurants all around. Absolutely beautiful!!! :D

Then we decided why not check out the movies! So we decided to go and see A Lot like Love. Now, first of all, when we first stepped in the movie complex, well, I fell in love with every boy there. They were so darn hot. Every guy!! Oh, boy!! Anyway, small side note there. Ah, we got snacks (still hungry) and headed in. Now A lot like Love is a darn good romantic movie. Yes, it is a chick flick! Yes, it is a feel good movie!! But guess what? it was really real. It appeared natural. I don't know, things happened in it that you could see ordinary people doing (all except having sex in a airplane toilet - or do ordinary people do that?). It was just beautiful. :D

Anyway, after that we started taking more photos. We got great passport type photos in a photobooth which was tons of fun. I am a terrible poser - I just can't do it. All i can do is smile. Well, not only was I required to pose, I was also asked to be serious. Man, it was so hard. After that photo I just got the laughs. And well, every photo after that is my big toothy smile. Ah, sorry girls. But one thing I am thankful for that I was able to remove the blue tint from my teeth (from the tons of M and Ms that I had eaten during th emove - how embarrasing!).

After that we continued to take random photos - in the carpark, in the park, near a lake, at a bus stop etc. It was tons of fun and I even got my timer working on my camera so we could have all 3 of us in it as well.

Then we got home, Yo stayed the night and now I have to go and catch a few hours sleep before going in bright and early with Kel to Tarramurra to buy snacks for Avondale visit. Ah, I just wanted to share my super, awesome, wonderful, action packed, and very exciting evening. I majorly enjoyed it. It was an awesome time.

God bless,

Shaz

Ok, I am selfish. I admit it. I want my parents all to myself and I don't want to share. I know it is wrong but I never get to see them and I miss them.

Yet I know I have to get over it. I have to accept that someone will be staying at our house the entire time I am visiting with Mum and Dad. we have always had an open house where college and highschool students could come and crash; to escape from dodgy school or abusive people, to relax in safety even if it is for a little time. Yet because I harely ever get any alone time with my parents, we prefer that for at least the first weekend while us biological kids are home that there be no extra extended family visiting. Yet this time is different. There is a girl who has become quite close to Mum and Dad and she visits them often. Now it is school hols and Mum and Dad don't want her to stay at the highschool (there was a tragic accident there recently and it is just safer if she is at PAU) yet she can't go and stay with her family as they abuse her. It is the right thing for her to be allowed to stay with Mum and Dad. I mean, she is a nice girl who helps around the house and garden in exchange for a happy, safe family environment.

So why am I am so resistful about sharing my folks? It isn't right and it isn't Christian!!! What is wrong with me?

Well, I will get over it. I will adjust and I will become friends with this girl. Mum told me that she was willing to return to the highschool so it would just be Mum, Dad and me but it was Mum and Dad who insisted she stay .. it being safer and all. They said I would understand.

And I do. I don't like being resistful or selfish. I don't like being demanding of my parents when they give so much of themselves already. They are in the right and i am in the wrong.

That is it. I will not make liers out of my parents and I will be open, friendly and nice towards this girl. I mean, the house will be kinda empty during the day when Mum and Dad are at work. It might be nice to have another friend at PAU (since I really don't know many people there since Mum and Dad moved there around the same time I left home).

Sorry, I just had to vent.

Onto less confusing news: people from Avondale may be visiting tomorrow. :D Rus, Krystal, Chris, Daniel, Braden, Clinton, Sonia, Keith, Tony, Andre etc. (if all that have been invited can or do come). How exciting. :D And we have a nice group here waiting for them: Kel A, Kel P, Kristin, me and well, yeah, that is it. But still, we are not bad people :P

Ah, anyway, got to go buy snack food etc. :D

Thanks for letting me vent :D

Well, it is Friday night and even though I haven't done anything all week I am glad it is Sabbath. For one thing, it gives me a reason to clean my room :)

Ah, Sabbath is this time of rest and relaxation. And of course, almost immediately following my last blog entry I became very busy. I am leaving to go to PNG on Wednesday and there are a number of things I want/need to do before I go. Hopefully it all happens. :)

Ah, life is good. The op went well and no pain was experienced while meeting up with the oral surgeon. :) Always a good thing.

I have started my second photo colarge (sorry about spelling) on my wardrobe and I am really enjoying it. I love photos. They are so relaxing. :)

I am excited about heading home. It should be awesome. I haven't been in so very long and I miss Mum and Dad so much. So much to talk about and think over. Ah, it should be good.

By the way tonight I got very clucky. Oh dear me!!! I dislike being clucky. That is for other girls. I want to be independent and NOT homely. But in the past 24hrs I have got very clucky for kids especially little boys. I want little boys. This is most bizarre. I don't normally feel like this and it is only comfortable to a certain extent. But it is also the most terrible timing. I mean, I have to have my wits about me when I go home and face my parents who are most eager for grandkids. I must be strong.

Anyway, it isn't like I am going to be able to have kids anytime soon. I don't even have a man ... and even if i did, kids are a long way off. :)

(Good, this is sounding more like the Shaz I know and love)

Anyway, have a great Sabbath

Shaz

Ok, I admit it. I am bored. And nothing satisfies. And I mean nothing. THe girls are great - been popping around to make sure I am fine and keeping me up to date with the real world. I am in a comfortable amount of pain (can you have such a thing?) and I am still doing stuff. But I feel like there isn't really worthwhile to do. Ok, just ignore me really. I am just ranting and raving because ... well, I can. And I don't usually ... do i?

Yet I wonder am i really bored? I mean there is so much I can do. Kel Price (1st yr nursing student) just moved to the SAN so i can show her around, can't I? Well, kinda but then I get really tired.

I try watching movies - tons of different types. But yeah, nothing satisfies.

I need to go and pick up tickets to go home and I feel miserable the entire time. I think what I need is to go home. Yeah, and to stop whinging. No one likes a whinger. Especially me. Shut up, Shaz!!!

:D

Anyway, I will try and not be so bloody annoying in the rest of this blog. Ok, well, I have my post-op appointment tomorrow to ensure everything went well. And I reckon it did. :)

Kristin arrives tomorrow which should be awesome as well. :)

KylieAnne takes off to Melbourne tomorrow to visit relatives there. Lucky thing. :)

And I am going to sleep most of the weekend. And I am going to enjoy it. :) I really do like it. Sleep is good.

Anyway, I know this was a hopeless blog and believe me, if I really want to stop being bored I can. I think I am actually enjoying being bored so I can complain. How hopeless is that? Anyway, enough of miserable Shaz. I mean, I know it is human and everything but I really starting to annoy myself.

Anyway (by the way, how many times do I really say anyway?) I should go. If I keep this blog up I am going to continue to waste both our times ... and that just isn't cool.

Good luck those still with exams. Study hard. You'll be fine.

Sorry such a miserable patient

Shaz

Check out more random photos here

Enjoy

Ok, Well I am in pain. Not much, but enough that I am aware of it. :)

As far as I can tell the operation went well. Everyone was very nice and Yolanda, the dear girl, was able to pick me up and drop me off at hospital. How sweet? :)

Everyone has been really good - Kel, Kylie Anne, Melody, Yolanda, and Clover have all been in to make sure I am still alive. And I am!!! Yipee!!!

Ah, I haven't been doing much but recovering. Been getting into Kel's movie collection. It isn't really my taste so it is a good thing that I am recovering. Otherwise I just may not have the energy. And guess waht? I am actually enjoying them. :)

My diet consists of jelly, luke warm soups (nothing too hot), custards, yougarts, ice cream and other soft stuff. Thankfully I have enough so I don't need to go shopping.

I also have to wear a dorky ice pack around my cheeks. Looks so bizarre but it does keep the swelling down :) Ah, my left cheek did swell up a far bit but nothing too bad. Just look slightly punched. :) lol.

Ah, warm water and salt rinses and painkillers are also part of my day. I don't have much energy but that is ok. I don't really want to be doing anything.

Anyway, I find out on Firday if the op was a true success. I reckon it was because if there had been any major complications I rekcon the hospital would have told me before I left :).

Anyway, hope you are keeping well,

Sharona 

Well, I am totally buggered!!! I don't why but this week has been so draining of me. It is late so I will be short (sorry) and I will tell you what I have been up to.

Bon came to visit!!!! We had a great time - visiting Avondale, staying at my Nan's, hanging with the Toy Boys and Daniel, meeting up with Kristin and Melody in the city, Watching Mr and Mrs Smith, having a fun Sabbath luncheon at my Nan's house (where the high light or was it the low light was when someone started talking about strippers in front of my Nan and I choked on my drink and it started coming out of my nose!!!! Out of the entire lunch and afternoon that is the thing that stands out the most!!! Ah, but I think it went down well - I hope anyway!), going to a 21st birthday and watching the boys stack on the b'day boy (poor bugger) and glad wrap him to a pole (poor bugger again), and watched movies and just chilled. It was over all too fast but it was great that Bon could come and visit :D

I did my first night duty after I returned from dropping Bon at the airport. that was interesting and fun. The hardest thing was staying awake. It wasn't too bad esp. with coke!!! :D But it was a learning experience. :)

I had an oral surgeon app. soon after where I discovered that I am getting my 4 wisdom teeth out this monday - in 2 days time from now!!! :) A bit scary but my main worry is getting addicted to pain killers :(

Been working some which has been good - money is always a great thing :)

And I am going home soon :) Yipeee!!!!!!! I seriously can't wait. It has been so bloody long. i love living in Australia, don't get me wrong. I love my friends both at the SAN and at Avondale. I just miss my folks so much sometimes it hurts. I miss their wisdom, their strength, and just them. :( So I am going home so soon - in less than a fortnight. :) Yipee!!

Poor friends at Avondale are in the middle of exams. Poor buggers. Good luck, guys. You will be fine. Do your best and let God do the rest. :)

Um, and I believe that is about it. I should go to bed. I am going to Wahroonga Church tomorrow for the first time in about a month. Dude!! I miss it, too!! I have enjoyed YAN (as always), but I also enjoy Wahroonga. :) Ah, don't mind me too much - just in a tired, semential mood. :)

Night

Sharona

"Sharona, come with me!!"

What is going on? I am unsure and no one else is asked. Thinking I am in trouble I get up and follow Sarah.

Dashing upstairs she explains what is going to happen. My goodness, this is good. I dash into the bathroom and change into the appropriate clothes. Then I go to an exclusive section of the hallway and meet Libby and a classmate called Chris. We discuss idle things like weather and food ... then we get the call.

After Libby grabs everything she needs, Chris and I follow her along long corridors and past open doors till we enter a huge open area with beds upon beds and people in masks and suits and huge amounts of equipment parts and many scary things. This is the real thing and I am nervous as all hell. Libby notices and keeps asking me if I am going to faint and if I have a weak stomach. Of course, I am proud to say that I have never fainted ever but that doesn't take this look of total terror off my face. This whole experience in unknown ... I know that most experiences a student nurse has is unknown to other people but this experience was even unknown to a number of student nurses. I was terrified.

Getting extra protective gear - funky shoes, red hat and a mask (even with protective see through shield over my eyes, make me almost unrecognisable. Entering with Libby and Chris I move to get out of the way of so many people dressed like me and looking so alien (it made me wonder what I looked like), yet since I couldn't take my eyes of the person in the middle of the room flat on their back I almost walked right into a table of very sterile instructments. The gasp and the look I was given by an RN made me almost want to cry. I was scared, in an unfamiliar area and I almost destroyed the end result of preparation  and sterilisation time. My goodness. Chris was a sweetie and laughed at me. Sounds strange but it made me smile and then I could cope. We stuck together trying to stay out of the way of what seemed like hundreds of medical staff (yet was only 10 or so).

Libby assisted us in getting the best seats in the house (not that it was hard since not many people turn up for these sort of things). Then the doctor starting cutting the swollen abdomen of a very pregnant woman. He cut through the skin, he cut through the fatty stores, he cut through the body layers and then blood came gushing out. Blood. Suction.

Then while his partner use a metal appliance to hold the bladder down, he cut through the uterus. Out came the waters ... like a big waterfall. Like a big splash. Like a pregnant lady having her waters broke. It was a beautiful sight. Out it came in every which direction. Suction was in overdrive. Then you could see it. The top of a head. Damp and blood smeared but a head. The doctor got his hand down and just like that pulled the baby out. It just kinda slid into his arms. Giving the new baby boy to Libby, he then clipped and cut the cord and pulled the placenta out. Beautiful thing it was. Both baby and placenta. The baby was so tiny. So small. Yet it was taken out of my view as the essential checks were done and I watched the doctor start sewing up the many different layers&nbs p;of the mother. Then the baby cried. I hadn't even noticed it hadn't cried. But when it did, it was beautiful. The most natural thing you have ever heard.

And before you knew it we were out of there - Libby, Chris, the father, the baby and me. We removed out protective gear and returned to the Maternity Ward where we weighted, measured and analysed the baby. 

And then I had to return to my RN and the day got boring once more.

But today was a good day in Maternity because I got to see a C section delivery. :D  

Howdy all,

Well, life is pretty busy at the moment with visiting Avondale, working, dentist appointments, talking to folks on the phone (yeah!!!!) and basically trying to keep sane :)

I have discovered that Maternity is so BORING!!!!!! My goodness, nothing happens. The only thing I have done all morning is remove a catheter which I hadn't done before but it is so piss easy. Ok, yeah, bad use of words.

I don't know why but last week I kinda enjoyed sleeping in etc. but since getting up at 6am this morning was so hard and I am so tired. I just didn't sleep well at all. Strange ... mmmmm.

Oh, and guess what? On Sunday, 5th of June 2005 it was Kylie Anne Major's 19th birthday!!!!! And it was Brandon Price's 21st birthday!!!!!! Yeah, awesome day. Happy birthday guys!!!

Anyway, need to get back and try and survive maternity. So boring ... oh, course it is only the first day and i haven't been into delivery suite yet which should be really exciting. :)

See ya,

Sharona

P.S. Guess what? When I told my mum that I was going to maternity this week and would see live births and C sections, she was all worried I would be put off having kids - she wants grandkids. Strange lady. I need to go through a couple of other first .... that is, if I actually want them anyway. :) Catchya later :D