MY PARENTS ARRIVE IN 3 NIGHTS SLEEP!!! THIS IS BETTER THAN SANTA ... BECAUSE IT IS TRUE!!!!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!

:D

Man, doing clinical is really killing me. I am so tired. I got up around 4:45am this morning so I could be at clinical to see an ECT - Electroconvulsive therapy. It was cool and everything but there was a huge lack of communication between staff and well, it was just stupid. A little thing went wrong but combined with lack of sleep, I was relatively POed. And since the staff and clients on my ward were both crappy, the day was not that great. :(

But on the whole, I am really loving my clinical. I am at a mental clinic and on the drug and alcohol ward. It is great - really interesting. :) The clients are like Days of our Lives with drugs, booze, women, hooking up, drug dealers, hookers, the lot. I am loving it. :D

Having really been up to much else recently. I am just recovering from my last visit to Avondale. That was the craziest weekend in the world. :p But now, I am just recovering from it and learning to listen to my body when it says to sleep or turn off the TV etc. :) Getting there ... slowly.

I am reading a book called Fiesta by Ernest Hemingway (I know, I know - I saw it in the library and thought: why not?). Dad told me that he actually comminted suicide ... and I can see why ... if I couldn't write I would too. It is terrible. I am really not enjoying it. Strangest book but I WILL finish it. :)

I got photos from the JAC today. And some are really cute. Actually, most are really good. I just wish I had taken more digital photos so I could put some more up here. Oh well.

My parents will be here so soon - just over a week. :D :D

And Chris is graduating. DUDE!!! My brother is growing up. <tear>

Anyway, don'/t have much news - just need sleep,

Miss ya

Shaz

I just watched Tears of the Sun. I am still crying. You know how there are just some movies that get to you? Well, Tears of the Sun is that movie for me. I am not what you would label a passionate activist. I believe in human rights and justice but … I am … I don’t know what I am … lazy? …. busy? …. comfortable?

Well, here are some things from Tears of the Sun that forced me not to be comfortable; even to the state of tears being shed over and over again.

1) A priest + 2 nuns refusing to evacuate out of Africa (which is in the middle of a huge conflict) because their sick still need them … later they were killed

2) Hardened soldiers returning to assist refugees in finding safety

3) A soldier and a civilian being shot and the soldier crawling so he could cover her body with his so the rebel soldiers that were rushing past would not hurt her body

4) Rebel soldiers cutting off the breasts of nursing mothers so they can not feed their babies and so the babies die of starvation and the mother die from pain and loss of blood

5) Rescue soldiers killing the rebel soldiers who did cut off the breasts of nursing mothers, even though they knew they were breaking the rules of engagement

6) A Dr giving a mother who had her breasts cut off an overdose of morphine so she could die in peace rather than bleed to death

7) Refugees fighting along side rescue soldiers to help each other get away alive

8) Families meeting up after huge amounts of time apart

9) Rescue soldiers sticking together and covering each other when they know they can be killed by the rescue air fire that is raining down on them

10) Hardened soldiers sharing their food supplies with refugees

11) A young girl pulling back in fear when a rescue soldier tries to help her up the path

12) The love that the refugees have for the doctor who refused to leave them behind

13) Rescue soldiers entering a village where genocide is occurring and rescuing the people there even though they are not ordered to; their good conscience is their motivation

14) The hopelessness of a civilian man so that he assists the enemy soldiers so they will not hurt his family that they have in captive

15) The fact that all of this happens everyday and no-one does anything about it

16) The fact that CNN etc display this to the rest of the world and the world nods and goes that is terrible but oh, I am too comfortable paying off my mortgage, getting my children through college, having my midlife crisis, saving for a car, visiting friends, going to the movies, anything to forget that I am not doing all I can to achieve what is right and just for other people in the human race

I want to do something. I must. I do realise that Tears of the Sun is just another Hollywood movie. I also know that even though the story line may be different; the same terrible things happen everyday. It is just that we choose to turn a blind eye.

People are dying; women are being raped, lives and families are being ruined. Stop being comfortable. Stop turning a blind eye. Contact the UNHCR, Amnesty International, World Peace, anything. Just do something to help your fellow humans. I beg you. I beg me.

Oh, I had to laugh when I saw Brandon last comment on my last blog: After exams I should be unproductive for a while. :D If only I had known this advice or listened to this advice when I finished my exams. :)  Let me tell you about my weekend. :)

On Friday after my exam, Yolanda, Kylie Anne and myself decided we had the right to perve on Orlando Bloom in Elizabethtown so we took ourselves off to the movies. Kylie, Chris and i were going to Cooranbong for the wekend but we had 15mins between the end of the moive and the train leaving. Pleaty of time, right? Wrong! The movie started late and finished late. So off we ran (me with 2.5L of fake wine in a Coles bag over my shoulder) from the shops to Yo's car to grab out luggage and then to the st in the space of 5mins! So, fake wine, handbags, small suitcases, sleeping bags. We are sore and buggered when we meet up with Chris (I think one of the first words I spoke to my beloved brother who I hadn't seen for a couple of days was swear words and a snappy attitude - poor bugger) and we go through the ticket machine. Then, CRAP!, I realise, I don't have my concession card with me. Yo has it as I gave it to her to buy my movie ticket and it was never returned in the fun of the moive and the run for ht etrain. Well, thankfully the train was 1/2hr late (yes, we run all that way for NOTHING!) so I ran back to the shops to find Yo. If you have been in Hornsby Shops then you realise that this was a desperate attempt - Yo could be anywhere and she was. I couldn't find her. So then I ran back to the train st. and asked the train attedants bout it. The train ride to Morriset is known for being checked constatnly for correct tickets etc. and I wanted to see if I could get a mark on my ticket etc to avoid a fine. Nope, I had to buy a new ticket!! And guess what? I didn't have enough money because I didn't grab my change off Yo either. Time to beg from Kylie! Thank the Lord for Kylie! So I broght a new ticket and got on the train. I was feed up, tried, crappy and snappy. Definiately not a good look. :)

And then, we sat near a lady who liked to spit. I believe she had some kind of disorder but her and her carer were quite interesting and kinda disturbing. :)

Arrived in Morriset (without being checked - yeah, I didn't have to buy a ticket afterall!!) and Nan came and picked us up. I had told Nan that Kylie would be with us but she must have forgetted because she didn't realise taht she was with us until we were basically home. Kinda embarrassing :( So we all had dinner and we then run Kylie up to college.

I planned to be in bed by 8pm and the one place I was certain this owuld happen would be my nan's house. But ... my great uncle was visiting from Mel and well, he likes to talk .. so yeah, sleep by 10pm. And up at 6am because I was sleepin in my nan's room (b/c house was crowded) and she gets up super early.

Church at Memorial and luch with family. Then up to college because of the demand by my grandma to be organised (even tryed getting Chris to convince me to be organised - EXCUSE ME???) She was stressed because of the places I was going, the times I was leaving and the rides I was needing. :) But trying to find people on a Sat afternoon at Avondale is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. :( Anyawy, got enough arra nged that my nan was happy. :)

Got back and we went to my aunty's new restaurant for my Nan's 85th birthday party. It was beautiful. Never seen my aunty's family look so good. :D The food was great, the converstaion was better than in the past and well, I believe Nan had an awesome birthday party. :)

Got back from that and Yo had been waiting for just on 5mins. Great timing. We jumped in her car around midnight to drive to the bach. Kel was having her 20th birthday party at Catherine Bay beach. Great .. except we didn't know where to go. We finally got hold of people who explained it all. Bradon Oliver is such a lifesaver!!!! :D Arrived and had fun setting up and chatting with everyone and trying to sleep on the sand and keep warm and  enjoy the sunrise etc. :) Had a toast and then Yo and i left.

Got back to Nan's around 7am when she was getting up. Crashed and Mum and Dad woke me at 11am by the phone and house being empty. Chatted with them and then crashed again till 2pm where I had a late lunch with Nan and Uncle Roy. Packed up everything and got ready for the JAC. :D

Arrived at Avondale super early (oh well, better than super late like last year) and helped everyone else get ready. Kylie and I went as Black and White lesibian couple. We looked hot but I have to admit that when I saw all the other girls; I found underdressed. My entire outfit was NOT new! except for a small rose. DUDE!! But we still looked good. Jumped on the bus and went to the JAC banquet. :D

It was beautiful. It was at Tony Martin's art gallery and dinner was in a big white tent (which looked somewhat like Big Camp's Hang out Cafe tent). The food was good, the music was good, the entertainment was good, the book was excellent - 100% Jac Team!!

Did get a bit stressed as we still had no idea how we were getting home that nigh in time for early clincla the next day. A guy we were travelling with said for us to trust him - that he would organise everything. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to trust people? For me not to organise stuff? Esp. when I am that tired? It is very hard. And in the end, we had to stay at Avondale an extra night and leave super early the next morning to arrive in Syd just in time. :D So, yeah, got about 3.5hrs sleep that night. :D And the ride back ... well, let's just say I am glad I was tired because I don't want to know how many laws this guy was breaking getting us back!!

Then I had a day of clinicla at a Drug and Alcohol Rehab place where I had to pinch myself to stay awake! DUDE!!! Findally, I got to sleep. Finally. :D

Now I fill my days with clinical, catching up on sleep and just enjoying the boring life for once! Boring is for me! I RESIGN from being OVERLY SOCIAL!!!! There were a number of times on the weekend that I just didn't cope well and I refuse to place myself in that situation again.

So, now I am going to go and have a perfectly boring afternoon of reading.

Miss ya :D

I think that one word says it all: Finished!

The exams are finished. I am finished. Classes are finished. The week is finished. My energy levels are finished.

But I get to sleep :D That is only just beginning

Have a great weekend

My body wants to kill me. I have been running on empty. I have been having a high intake of caffeine and a low intake of sleep. I have not been eating well. I have been studying all the time. I hate caffeine. I hate exams. I hate the stress and pressure I place upon myself. I hate this week.

But I am nearly done adn I strongly believe that I have passed every subject so far ... even Jenny's (lecturer from hell)!!!

One more to go and then sleep.

Got to go study :)

Hi everyone!!!

Well, my exams have officially started!!! I had spiritual care on Thursday. Kylie Anne and I made up such cool things to remember some great notes and they weren't even in the exam!!! :( But I believe I still passed :D So it is all good. :)

What else has been happening except exams, procrastination and studying? Well, I have been workign a little. I did a shift the other afternoon and I actually finished on time for the first time in history. I twas amazing!!!! I was so excited!!! It was really because I had a lift to take me home and I didn't want to be late at all and I wasn't! Whooa!!! :D And there were no major accidents or anything tlike that!!!  It was great!!! And I got to sleep in my own bed for that night instead of stay at work!!!! My bed!!! Awesome!!!

I got to chat with Kristin this afternnon whihc was awesome as always!! :D But man, I want to her to coe back already!! It is insane how much we all miss her here :( Come back, Kristin!! :(

Um, oh and I discovered something the other day - Dr House is Stuart Little's father!!! When I saw him in Stuart Little the other day I couldn't believe it!!! And then my dodgy memory could vaguely remember being todl this when I first started watching House but I think the real shock came when I saw this bitter, smart ass doctor actually be nice and caring!!! Shocking!!!

Anyway, got no real news except got exams, JAC (thank goodness I have a ticket because they are sold out already!! I hope they do some kind of late minute change with the tickets because so many people are annoyed by it), three weeks of clinical and then my parents will be here. Oh, I miss them too :(

Anyway, hope you have a great Sabbath,

Miss ya,

Shaz